The awareness most seek begins amidst a nightmare created in the mind and well-articulated in speech. In other words, your judgment of how horrible things are is not the place to start anything, let alone spiritual awareness. Your mind will always remind you of the difficult position from which your search began, and that will be the anchor keeping you from what it is you think you must find.
You must awaken within the nightmare you have determined exists and “get” that what you think is real is only because you think it. The awakening that keeps you separate is a continuation of an already predetermined nightmare you believe is what separates you from it. In other words, sweet dreams and nightmares are not real. YOU are!