Self-debasing at any level is driven by the stories you tell of its beginnings. Do you see? Stories fuel a protracted struggle to reach an arbitrary level taught and believed must be achieved to overcome your “less-than-ness” caused by something that no longer exists in reality. But the telling of the stories never seems to stop. Isn’t what you should do obvious?
Any story you tell of you is not you. It is fiction’s invasion of you now and now, regardless of any idea you attach to it, is perfection only someone without any story can experience. Don’t waste “now” with anything that isn’t, and your story, no matter how grand or horrific, “isn’t.”
YOU are perfect now; it is the only place or time you will be. So, right now seems like an excellent place to begin your perfect reality.