Your “reasoning’s” most remarkable feat of trickery is in having convinced you that your perceived problems are more significant and scarier than they are and that your burden of carrying them makes you sensitive, caring, and humble. All your “reason” does is attach you to something unreal and unimportant and provide the reasons for yourself and others to keep you bound to your monsters. It’s not freedom, and it’s not humility. It’s fear, and fear always bows to your “reason” for the wrong reasons.
A “monster” indulged in for any reason becomes enormous, so stop indulging them. It will set you free, and like clouds, your monsters will quietly transform into blue skies.