A fundamental aspect of quantum physics, called “uncertainty,” says that observation affects outcome, e.g., you can know either place or time but not both. In spiritual terms, observance of life is more impactful and less stressful than trying to force it into one direction or another. In other words, far more happens by observing than pushing for an outcome that is uncertain to begin with.
Stop trying to know what is going on. You don’t and never will. No one does, and everything you already believe you know about life should be put aside, as well, because life fools the one who thinks they have some control and unfolds beautifully, albeit mysteriously, for those who know they don’t. Observance has significant effect but is also a constant surprise.