Awareness can only be experienced. You cannot possess it like a car, a house, or an education. Possession is the endgame of all searches, and “finding” what you seek is the end of awareness. Do you see? Fixation, attachment, beliefs, and ritual cause stagnation, and living, which is wild and crazy, mysterious, and uncertain, always takes a hit when you make a claim to any formula or particular way. The infinite cannot be corralled into the finite scope of your mind, and “what YOU are” first, before a single thought, is infinite.
If you must search, may it lead you nowhere; that, at least, is much closer to awareness than anything or anywhere you think you need to get otherwise.
Your World, Intuitively