Reconciliation with life is not possible if you require an understanding of what life is about, why you are what you are, why you are here, and what, if anything, lies beyond it. Such questions are mysteries no “mind” will ever comprehend, and they are also distractions that draw you away from the life you have.
Life is a present moment reckoning where all that lies before you lives its full measure without any explanation or meaning. The “reckoning” is that you, too, can live fully in concert with everything else, as is, and without expectations that dissatisfaction, in any way, is of your own making.
It is a difficult thing to let go of all the neat little revelations you’ve determined are reasons for why things are as they are, but doing so stops an activity of your mind that always yields an erroneous result. You just don’t and won’t know, so let go. “Not-knowing” is surprisingly vast and profound, “knowing.”