You don’t deserve anything in life. “I deserve” puts the responsibility of your life and your experience into the realm of someone or something providing it for you, and it is based on wishes that what is happening is not to “your” liking. Do you see? It is a dominant lament of humans that “living” in and of itself is not enough.
Life, instead, “deserves” everything you can give it without purpose or reason. Your best is the unjudged action you take to live each moment as fully as possible, and “who deserves what” is never a consideration. “I deserve” cancels, “I AM.” YOU create all that is until your mind mucks it up with “I deserve.” Don’t muck it up!