The desire to understand is, in itself, an obstacle to understanding. It wraps things up in descriptions, rules, expectations, and processes that become the focus of fulfillment, all of which can never be because wants and wishes live in the future, which does not exist.
You will never understand as long as you focus on understanding. Life will confound every desire you have with present-moment reality and keep you ever so, the more you try to replace it with something else you believe is better.
What is is incomprehensible, but it is real. What YOU are gets it because IT, too, cannot be understood. IT can be, however, experienced in the quiet acceptance of present reality. Nothing is more exhilarating!
Your World, Intuitively